Live the questions

pondering..

tug at my heartstrings...

speak to my soul...

you'll come back, when its over.. no need to say goodbye..

The Cure

To master a feeling

is not to overcome or ignore it,

but is to feel it completely;

come to peace with it;

then set it free to move on.

vision of love

Just wondering, when did it start being complicated? When I was young (oh I'm still young!! What i mean is during my high school years.), I used to think that I'll find that person -- the love of my life -- then we will live happily ever after.. We of course have big dreams and we'll chase it, but at the end of the day, we already found each other so that's it! The world could disappoint us, the world could deny our dreams, but we have each other, together we will inspire and persevere! The biggest mistake we could probably do is have an unplanned pregnancy - which can be solve by celibacy. Yeah I used to have it all figure out.. These days, I think the big dreams are easier to achieve -- everlasting love -- not so much..

Happy Friday everyone!!

Prayers for Japan

Day 10 - The heart of worship is surrender.

Quotes from the book:

there are 3 barriers that block our total surrender to God: fear, pride and confusion. We don't realize how much God loves us, we want to control our lives, and we misunderstand the meaning of surrender.
Can i trust Him? Trust is an essential ingredient to surrender. You won't surrender to Him unless you trust Him, but you can't trust Him until you know Him better. Fear keeps us from surrendering, but Love casts out all fear. The more you realize how much God loves you, the easier surrender becomes.
What it means to surrender. Surrendering is not passive resignation, fatalism, or an excuse for laziness. It is not accepting the status quo. It may mean the exact opposite: sacrificing your life or surrendering in order to change what needs to be changed. He calls surrendered people to do battle on his behalf. It is not for cowards or doormats.. Likewise, it does not mean giving up rational thinking. Surrendering is not repressing your personality. He would not waste the mind He gave you! Rather than your personality being diminished, surrendering enhances it.
u know you are surrendered to God when you rely on Him to work things out instead of trying to manipulate others, force your agenda and control the situation. You let go and let God work. You don't have to be always in charge. Instead of trying harder, you trust more. You don't react to criticism or rush to defend yourself. Surrendered hearts don't edge others out, don't demand their rights and aren't self serving. Genuine surrender says, "God, if this problem, pain, sickness, or circumstance is needed to fulfill your purpose and glory in my life or in another's, please don't take it away." This level of maturity does not come easy.
everybody eventually surrenders to someone or something. if not to God, you will surrender to the opinions or expectations of others, to money, to resentment, to fear, or to your own pride, lusts, or ego. You were designed to worship God -- and if you fail to worship Him, you will create other things to give your life to. You are free to choose what you surrender to, but you are not free from the consequences of that choice. If you don't surrender to God, you surrender to chaos. Surrender is not the best way to live, it is the only way to live. Nothing else works. All other approaches lead to frustration, disappointment and self-destruction.
Regardless, surrendering is not a one-time event. There is a moment of surrender, and there is a practice of surrender, which is moment by moment and lifelong. The problem with a living sacrifice is that it can crawl off the altar, so you may have to re-surrender your life 50times a day.

Question to Consider: 

What area of my life am I holding back from God?
hmmm..
1) A friend once told me to "give up the person God has been asking me to release."
2) my goals consists of living an abundant life, a full on 360 degree change. Sometimes i think He is the one on the drivers seat cuz ultimately i mean well, but then there are times I get scared that it may not be what He wants for me and that always makes me wanna grab the wheel.. My heart is urging me not to settle for anything less than that.. Well, from here, I can only wish that what I want is what He wants for me too..

..spread your wings, and fly..

I know you're just a rag doll now,
sewn together with memories that we might have had.
I know you're just the dream inside of a dream.
Soon you'll just be a series of images that sometimes flash through my mind, 

when I least expect it. 

And after that, only a few will stay. 

Then, one. A memory of a memory.

Day 9 - God smiles when I trust Him.

Question to Consider:

Since God knows what is best, in what areas of my life should I trust Him more?

Everything! Starting from my love life to my ultimate life path. I got this funny feeling, I'll be slacking off from here. On a totally unrelated note, here's some pretty quotes and song..

Day 1 - It's not about me..

Question to Consider: 

In spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

by loving

by respecting other people's feelings, respecting their privacy..

by learning to take responsibility of my own feelings, my own destiny.

by making sure i will turn out okay, so im one less person to worry about, hoping one day I'd have enough to lend a helping hand too..

by reminding myself that He's like santa clause ^_^, keeping lists of everything i did or did not do, so I make sure that no matter how hurt i feel, i don't wish the same thing to anyone..
animals/pets - reminds me how we are here to care for all of His creations
when my siblings calls me ate, a silent portion of my heart always seems to thank God for that
 listening to songs like this one:

I'm ready to wake up in a good mood. and I can honestly say, I'd been waiting all my life for that..

Going to ------- fair tomorrow. Wish me luck.. They better tell me something pretty, or else..,

i'll be =( and me just wanna be =) ..

First Day of my Life - Bright eyes

This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me

I always try to do this on my own, but I was wrong.. cause only with you can I move on..

..with you life is so easy, why do i make it hard?..

Cheers !!

I trust that somewhere in the universe, there's a you that feels the same.

Timelessness

You’d flown away with your broken wings, years earlier.

I never though I’d see you again.

But you came back, with your mended wings.

You asked me if I'd still have you.

It wasn’t weakness that I saw in that moment.

It was strength.